i cant figure out whats real anymore. i want everything to feel real. my life is good right now. but what if what makes it good isnt real? i’m so lost. i feel too much. and i cant feel anything. how does that make sense?? ugh. how am i 19 years old already? what the fuck? i need angel to wake up. sometimes i slap myself and i dont know if i want that to do anything but it doesnt do much but hurt my face for a few seconds. i need to fucking feel something sometimes.
i cant fucking sleep. i gotta close again tonight i need to sleep today. ugh. my head hurts and im so uncomfortable.
i want things to be real. i kind of want to smoke a blunt right now, thatd help me calm down so much and maybe help me sleep but i’m so goddamn UGH.