6 years? and how many times in those 6 years did we go without talking.
i dont want this to continue anymore…
weed is making me lazy i need to stop..
anberlin – paperthin hymn
makes me feel like drowning
i dont deserve to have hands, i’m absolutely horrible,
angel hates me forever.
i’m damned to hell.
i can’t forget it. i can’t forget when she said “i see you sinking deeper and deeper in a hole…”
what the hell does that even mean?
i really do feel like i’m in a hole, over her. i honestly cant even see the light.
am i dramatic? is that what this is all about? i’m just some morbid story teller?
some random stranger who i only talked to for 3 days had this ability to make my heart beat really fast.
never knew who she was, and at the time, i just couldnt figure out what possible purpose there was to all that.
it really was just a gruesome joke.
I just want a purpose. Life, is way too short.
but i can’t see a light.
im not making fucking sense and i need to sleep