I was a little depressed going into work yesterday. Just felt used, rejected, drained. I’m alright now. For the most part. I smoked a cigarette on the way to work and I was shaking and thinking how totally addicted I am. It sucks but I’m just like my mom I guess. I really need to get away from everyone for a little. Everyone’s going through so much struggle and it’s bringing me down too. I need positivity. I really like my own apartment and I miss it. Being at work keeps me busy and occupied. I need comfort. I need to eat and go to biolife.