i can’t deny it. i can’t. i have anxiety. i suffer from it. it’s real.
today. i tried to think maybe it’s high blood pressure. maybe i can just go to the hospital.
no. i never hear anything good about atrium.
biolife HAS to check my blood pressure and if it’s bad, i can’t donate.
it was slightly just below normal. it was perfectly okay.
i should be perfectly okay.
but i’m not.
When i donated, i got dizzy. i got nauseated. i got uneasy. uncomfortable.
i wasn’t pale. i wasn’t going to pass out.
i was anxious as fuck.
i have been so sad, and tense today.
i can’t be fixed. i can only ease myself.
i’m going to be sick for the rest of my life.
i have to live with this. and if anyone cares about me, they will have to too.